rediscovering eden

these days...

2007-06-26T07:31:50Z

i havent been updating in here for a really long time.
words dont come easy like they use to.
i feel like i have grown but i know i am escaping more than i should.

when u are older, you are just faced in making life decisions.

;

people are leaving and friendships may change?
3 of my good friends are leaving for australia
and as much as i am happy for them,
i know i fear for them inside. :(

oh well, i am just grateful that i still have A
even if he is going to be gone soon.
i realised i love him even more because
i know he is also a good friend and a brother to me. (:

in all these things,
i thank You because i know you are
somewhere looking out for me;
holding me, guiding me and loving me.

eternise_hearts @ 2007-02-21T00:49:00

2007-02-20T16:50:37Z

Will do most of the daily updates at nette-.blogspot.com .
So just tune in to that website.
Livejournal will be friends locked for personal entries.

Will update LJ as often as i can. :D

eternise_hearts @ 2007-02-12T14:44:00

2007-02-12T06:44:56Z

Down with a bad flu and bad cramps.
I skipped school today. Gosh, i am in great misery.
and i feel bad for not making it to school.
praying that Rappa wont read the attendance sheet

RANTING

2007-02-06T15:26:27Z

hello.

reading my tourism readings actually makes me very happy. i feel so enlightened and i am glad i get to see things from a bigger and broader picture. besides, tourism tutorials are so damn fun because TC Chang always makes it fun and you dont feel like you have to be forced to say something. If only all Geog tutorials can be like that..

PS tutorial is like scary. Gosh, thank God i am going to skip Rappa's one and swap to next week. argh, i wonder how long can i escape from it? i feel damn stupid in the class because we have to answer and clarify what we have prepared for the tutorial. everyone seems to be speaking in a foreign language or something. They are just damn good and intelligent. i feel stupid once again.

oh well, need to brush up on PS module now.
i feel damn far behind but yet i am too lazy to do anything.

blogger

2007-01-31T02:53:44Z

i will be doing updates in nette-.blogspot.com and this LJ. i decided to alternate and leave LJ for mostly my personal entries that would most likely be friends locked. dont worry, i will be doing updates in both! (:

i will still be doing my daily rounds of updating on your life and will be tagging as much as i can. :D

;

back to work. i have been a lazy girl. :(

mighty to save

2007-01-30T09:18:43Z

relearnt navigation codes and did a whole new skin. i am going to start on my christian series. HAHA. if there was one thing that i've learnt from the past, i know i failed to include the Godly aspect into my skins. well, things are going to change. :D

yet again.
mighty to save : http://www.blogskins.com/info/129434

i think i am blacklisted. Rappa is going to kill me soon. Din go for PS lecture and he randomly called out my name durring attendance taking. how unlucky can i get? Darn it, i am going to get it during tutorial next week. He is a super good teacher but he can be so darn fierce. ARGH :(

got lots of tutorials to do right now.
need to start doing after i go for a quick nap.

till the end

2007-01-29T10:21:14Z

In my heart, I can no longer hold inside
All of the love i used to hide.
I'd always be with you until the very end.
In this world,
There is no place I'd rather be
You are my life my soul, my world.
And through it all, i know you'll come to see
We'll always be,
Till the end.

i submitted :
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updates :D

2007-01-28T11:28:38Z

Sue showed me the trailer of Heroes and i managed to get Ziig to burn half the season for me so far. it is darn nice , it is like a mixture of Xmen and Fantastic Four combined and the story plot is super interesting. (: i am still in the midst of watching everything. Pls dont let me get addicted. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MBwEd_g62Hk

click to see the trailer.

a lot has happened over the weekend. Been spending time with the friday cg people and spending quality time with the rest of the church people. Late night supper with jeff, estelle and sue yesterday. i love selegie soya bean! :D luckily, i managed to study quite abit yesterday other than the fact that bryan spilled honey lemon on my notes and the words are all smudged now. HAHA. (: church is getting better , i must say and i love how changes are good. we are moving in the right direction and perhaps for now, i feel that we are going to drop our baggages and press on. I really thank God for the friday CG. though one of the oldest, i have learnt alot from everyone and i have really grown more right with God. i wish you, you and you were here to share with us that joy. If only things and changes happened faster then perhaps you guys wont have left and we would all be here still. (:

truly, everything in his time.

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watched happy birthday with lynn on friday. Darn it, the show was super emo and touching. but i din cry at all. perhaps, i expected and i predicted the ending perfectly. i could hear soft sniffs and crying in the cinema when the show ended. oops. caught up with lynn and it was good to have her around . :D went to see estelle , barn and andrew rock climb at farrer park. that must be one of the most painful sports ever. eeeeew, no wonder abi comes back with brusies and cuts all over. it is really painful to watch. (:

okay, off to eat dinner. (:

rise and shine

2007-01-27T01:29:32Z

rish and shine
wake up and smell the roses
wake up and be thankful for what He has blessed me with.

i have been thinking too much.
i want things to take the next step but it all seems too complicated.
everything in its time.

off to study at the airport.
going to take my mind off thinking.

Override

2007-01-23T15:42:26Z

if i have a glimpse Just an inkling of the truth
i see why i am me and why you are YOU
If i have a peek, an idea of the hows and the whys
i see your hand holding me back from my demise

You ask me to trust
So trust i must, i wont complain
I walk by faith not knowing the hows and whys
i feel Your love surround me , for me that will suffice

So impose Your will upon me
i 've got nothing left to hide
i am waiting for this moment
if You would override

eternise_hearts @ 2007-01-22T22:07:00

2007-01-22T14:44:08Z

Finally, i got time to start blogging about what happened during the weekends. Camp Echo, Worship Workshop and the Sleepover was good and i am really exhausted right now. So lets let the picture do the talking...

left : sue, me, rach and sharon
right: the group picture at Sue's stayover

The girls. :D

the CG. you all mean the world to me (:

Spending time reflecting outside of Sue's house was a really good time alone with God and me. With everything that was happening , alone time was needed. I am glad estelle came out and we had a really good long talk. the boys followed suit and endless car rides around the neighbourhood at 3 am on Ziig's car was darn fun and it was great to not think about things.

Sunday's worship was perhaps one of the best ever . Broke down because i couldnt stop my emotions and perhaps that was good. it was good to tell God how tired i have been and how i just wanted to let Him take control. I know that in all things, His goodness and love will never fail. (:

To A - Whatever that happens on 24th, i will be there for you.
we are going to go through it together. (:

To M, i am sorry. i wish i could be a better sister for you.

everlasting , your light will shine when all else fades
neverending, your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart is to bring you praise
from the inside out
Lord, my soul cries out

eternise_hearts @ 2007-01-21T21:55:00

2007-01-21T14:42:23Z

I AM TIRED!
i dont want things to go this way anymore..

mango ice tea & cafe cartel

2007-01-18T16:07:33Z

went to school for the one and only geog lecture. it was raining damn heavily as i headed down to queensway to meet marianne. i was stuck at the bus stop for close to half an hour and the whole bus stop was flooded. my jeans were wet to my knees. Darn it, i hate being wet. Bought sue's present and headed down to city hall to meet them. Had dinner at cartel and had a really nice long talk with them. Gosh, i have been spending so much money on food.

Marianne and Sam left early and Sue and i continued to shop. Decided to head to Marina to buy accessories and estelle called. And it turned out that ziig,cheryl and glenn were with her. It is actually quite cool to meet with your church friends on a weekday. And furthermore, we didnt plan to meet and we were in the same place. Walked around and had drinks at starbucks. It was a pretty good day ; enjoying the company of people you love. :D

tried to get a cab back with estelle. gave up waiting for cab at city because the queue was darn long. took a wrong train to raffles place, got out and headed back down to aljunied. Got a cab and i am finally home! (:

staying at home tml to watch webcast lecture.
i seriously need to start reading my notes
weekends are going to be packed with worship workshop and camp echo.

Never Gone

2007-01-17T16:03:51Z

God is not gone, He is watching.

But if i go to the east, he is not there;
if i go to the west, i do not find him.
When he is at work in the north, i do not see him;
when he turns to the south, i catch no glimpse of him
But he knows the way that i take;
when he has tested me, i will come forth as gold.
-Job 23:8

sometimes i doubt and sometimes i think so lowly
But you pick me up when i fall and when i dont seem to find myself
Let me dwell in your house.

eternise_hearts @ 2007-01-16T23:08:00

2007-01-16T15:19:27Z

and i wish i did not need to pretend.
i wish i could be stronger for you and for us.
we need to learn to see the good in the bad.
lets not think and lets live in faith each day

in my heart, we will never be apart.

<3

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2007-01-15T12:31:32Z

ARGH! I HATE THE TUTORIAL BALLOTING SYSTEM !

i didnt get one of my tutorial slots for GE2218. the other 3 slots that i put in were not successful too. this is my first time that i didnt get any slots for a particular module. Darn it, this is the module that requires group projects and Farisa & Mindy are all in seperate groups. i can just jump and go bang the wall. :(

going to have to try to appeal and push my way through to get the slot i want. i do have valid reasons anyway. Most of the tutorial slots clashes with my timetable anyway. PRAY PRAY PRAY!

;

it is in accepting what God has given to you. i finally understand what that means.
commit and trust. :D

farewell sec 3 dg :D

2007-01-14T14:44:04Z

and all good things must come to an end.

for 2 years : for being the best DG anyone could ask for. For letting me into your lives even when i am so much older than you guys. For letting me teach you all and learning so much more that i can ever expect from you guys. For all the fun and laughter we shared. For being open and being yourselves.. i thank you from the bottom of my heart.

it does not stop here. Even as you guys take a bigger responsbity of stepping up as facilitators, it is my prayer that you will take the step of faith and let Him take control over your worries for the new DG system. God's power is far more immagineably than we can ever expect and i know that you guys have the capacity to lead and impact the lives of the younger ones. :D i will be watching over you guys and i will be praying. (:

KEY FAMILY :D

2007-01-13T15:44:16Z

As requested by some people, these are the bestest friends that anyone can ask for. we have seen it all ; we have been there and gone there through every season of joys and sorrows. went all the way down with these people to changi airport to have lunch. it was great fun and i enjoyed myself alot :D

spent time with church people and went back to airport for dinner again. went with estelle and jeff to have supper at selegie soya bean. the grass jelly with sea coconut rocks. (: yeah yeah yeah. cracking all the lame jokes with them was really funny! i am really getting influenced by their lameness and their rendition of justin timberlake 's songs.

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chun's birthday was yesterday. had a fun time with the CT class people and it was great catching up with one another. i actually had a really good good time. i am glad that we are going to meet more often since this year will be filled with lots of 21st birthday parties. more late nights of driving sessions and bonding times with them . :D

long day in church tml.
till then...

10th jan

2007-01-10T15:38:09Z

it was a pretty busy day. Met A for breakfast and then came home to rest. Went to Kbox with ruth and choi . i had a great time with them; just fooling around and singing songs to our hearts's content. they wanted to surprise me with balloons and party hats but i came in too early and i caught them in action. but thanks anyway, i had a great time doing crazy things with you all.

Singing with an ah pei like ruth who sings oldies songs that i probably wont be able to remain by name but yet somehow when you hear them, you actually can sing along Or singing along with choi and her song selections of chao emo depressing songs actually makes us pretty awesome ktv buddies. HAHA. they can be so hilarious at times and it makes my day. :D

first half of ktv. with balloons and party hats.

went mad with choi and ruth. second half and our really funny lame poses. (:

dinner with the family over at jumbo clarke quay. Eating chilli crabs and enjoying the beautfiul city landscape view makes me feel like the luckiest girl on this planet. i have been blessed with wonderful friends and family that sometimes all i need to do is to stop, think and appreciate what God has given to me. :D

i am who i am because of what You have given to me.

happy 21st birthday to me! :D

love love love :D

2007-01-09T14:15:03Z

.so i thought it would be time to open some of the presents i received because my birthday is approaching in less than 2 hours. more pictures would be shared along with my birthday party pictures once i can find the camera cable wire. i have no idea where i put it and i cant find it still. i have lovely friends that can make me cry. :D

what the cg people gave me. the lovely board with all the wonderful childhood memories. it was so touching :D

front

back

anna sui's secret wish perfume from greg and adele.
i love the freaking packaging and the bottle. smells darn nice too.

precious moments bible from abi and clara. just what i wanted since my old bible was falling apart.

the sweet note that made me cry. :D

shocking number of pencil cases i received this year.
it is going to last me a lifetime and i will use all of them. :D

OMG! look what mindy gave me! An eeyore's computer speaker.
how freakin cool is that? i am loving it so much.

done. going to do some csi-loving on the Tv before heading off to study again.
2 more hours. OMG!

first entry in my new LJ

2007-01-09T03:23:47Z

WELCOME :D okay, excuse the formality but i love the new layout and i love everything about my new username. I am sure you all know what it means. :D i spent one hour doing the codes and figuring out how to change the css. but ya, credits to premade journals. (:

i am off to study. need to read my PS readings. gosh, the coursepack is so darn thick! :(
watching deathnote 2 later. i hope it is good especially since i did not watch the first one. HAHA.

one more day to my birthday ( shameful self plugged)
21. gosh, that does not seem like reality.

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2007-01-09T01:39:55Z

first day of school was really tiring. i kind of forgot that i had school at 12 and i also forgot that our arts canteen was closed. so darn it, i had to dress up quickly and cooked instant noodles before i left for school. geog lecture was pretty okay; the lecturer bores me to death. waited 2 hours alone to go for the PS module. i found a NY friend so that made me happy. i am not planning to appeal for my PA in SIngapore module because globalisation and politics is a pretty good module. i know it is hard but at least i am enjoying myself. the lecturer is so darn funny

seriously, doing a PS module makes me so happy. i feel like i am going to learn alot this sem. Politics and Me just click instantly! i was telling my new NY friend that PS tutorials are so relaxing. You go in there, you sit down and you just discuss an essay topic. it takes away the stress of group projects or ACTIVE class participation. i wished geog tutorials were like that too..

it is amazing that how you dont do well for your major modules but end up finding more interest and doing well for other modules you take.

had a great dinner with marianne and sue at city hall. :D okay off to sleep and i am going to study tml! nights. :D

Birthday Wishlist

2007-01-03T17:29:55Z

okay, i dont normally do this but because this year is my 21st birthday, i have decided that since i am having a party, a birthday wishlist will be more appropriate. (:

Birthday Wishlist

1) Birkenstocks/ Papillio Size 37 for Madrid and Size 38 for Florida
2) Adidas Jacket
3) A new shoulder bag for school
4) *Havaianas ( Taken already)
5) The new addition of leather strapped addidas watch
6) Cross pendant necklace
7) Lin Jun Jie's 2006 Concert DVD set
8) A new wallet
9) A new pencil case ( i dont like the big long ones. Shorter Sweeter ones are appreciated dearly)
10) Anna Sui's Perfume
11) Any Eeyore Related Collection
12) Adidas Box Sling Bag
13) Junk Food Tee Shirts
14) Corrinne May's Christmas CD

the list will be added along the way. (: i know i always tell people that i want practical things but it doesnt mean i want you to get me a table or a chair. (: ( RUTH CHAN, I HOPE U ARE READING THIS! HAHA) but yes, get me something that you know i will like and something that i can use.

okay this is getting a bit weird. Haha. (:

Details are as followed -

6th Jan 2007

Jc friends/ Uni Friends/ Sec school Friends / Badminton Friends
6.30 pm onwards at my house

Church Friends
7.30 pm onwards at my house.

Why the staggering of time? This is because i want to spend more time with my school friends before the large amount of church friends come. it does not mean that my school friends have to leave at 7.30! hahaha! YOU MUST STAY ON! my house is not that big and it is going to be crazy with the number of people coming but we are going to have a great time
Birthday Wishlist is on Tags. You can look for it at the left hand corner.
i cant wait. (: